The week before I moved out I dreaded going home. I guess I had grown so attached to routine, my friends, my room, my dinning hall, independence basically everything I love college that home seemed so drab and dead. As we drove away, my dad told me human beings are not animals that are meant to change. We don’t like change and we grow so comfortable with they way things are. I had probably been home for four hours when I realized how much I missed home. Seeing 15 09ers at once made it seem like NO time had passed and I was in for a good summer.
I feel like I’m around winners again. When I left Cupertino I was leaving some pretty brilliant minds. Minds who left for Ivy leagues, other UCs, and and small liberal arts schools. People who never accepted second best or mediocrity and loved learning. There were a lot of things I didn’t miss like ridiculous competition. But I guess being back brought me back to the mindset of being high achieving and always going for what I want.
I scored an awesome internship this summer working for the SF 49ers. It’s sounds a lot cooler than it is…. I’m still opening mail. And I’m also the Marketing and Communications coordinator for the school of engineering next year. Which also sounds a lot cooler than it is. I’m updating their facebook and twitter pages, but I’m not complaining it’s an amazing opportunity. Did I mention it pays for all of my tuition next year?
Though all of these opportunities sound amazing, and at the time I thought they were pretty cool too, I’m still not totally satisfied. I think this is because of Cupertino. Being around high achieving people makes me remember that I shouldn’t be satisfied until I have reached my very highest. Which I know I haven’t. I still feel like I could be better at what I’m doing which is a good feeling. I never want to be satisfied or settle for second best.
It’s funny how backwards I feel from 2 weeks ago… we’ll see how I feel in 3 months…
June 23, 2010 at 3:53 am |
You know, I felt exactly the same way. 5 weeks ago when I moved out I felt like I was going to miss Cal so much. And then a week ago I was complaining about moving back. And now I’m so happy to be in Berkeley again.
I like the balance I get – Cupertino reminds me of how amazing home is and how great all my friends are, and Berkeley reminds me of how amazing I can be. They feed each other and work together to make me a better person.
I think the key is remembering how lucky we are that we have two such amazing options, and to just keep in touch with college and home friends as much as possible.